the fourteen stations of the cross

Genesis 1: 1

Genesis 1: 2 - 4

Genesis 2: 18

creation I

in the beginning
god was alone

and god was the maker
for through the power of his hands a thing came into existence
and it was without form, and void
and it was full of darkness
and god walked around it
and god sat on top of it
and god said: let there be light
and there was light
and god saw the light, that it was good
and god looked around
and he saw there was nobody there
and he said:
it is not good that a god be alone
i shall make me a companion that be by my side

and god made a woman
and he called her lucifer
for she would carry the light

prologue   00

Genesis 2: 2

Genesis 1: 16, 17

Genesis 4: 1

creation II

[creation: stage is built up]

and on the seventh day god ended his work which he had made; and he rested on the seventh day, from all his work which he had made

creation III

and god turned his eyes onto lucifer, the woman he created, that she might carry the light; and he saw her, that she was beautiful to look upon; and he desired her; and he wanted her for him as his wife
and god said: i will make her a light, to shine by night, that she might look at it, as a token of my love for her.
and he made a light, and set it in the firmament of the heaven to give light upon the earth, and to rule the night.
and he went in unto her, and she conceived, and bare him a son, and said, i have gotten a man from the lord.
and they rejoiced, and their joy was great; for they said: on this day have we begot a son

ecce homo       in the beginning
man was bone
hewn out of stone found in the cold dark deep

and man was naked flesh
laid thereon
moulded from the ground under his feet
that he might be warm

and man was a mind
placed therein
that he might struggle on his way upon the face of the earth

and man was blood
from the animals around him
flowing therethrough
bringing life unto the multitude of organs that was man

and man was a skin
woven from finest silk
to cover man's naked flesh
that he might be touched

and man was an eye
for him to see
or not

station I   01
[jesus is condemned to death]

Mark 11: 7 - 11

Genesis 2: 15
hosanna           HOSANNA

and god took man, and put him into the garden of his creation, for man to sit down in.

Genesis 1: 31

Matthew 3: 16, 17
Luke 3: 21, 22

Matthew 27: 24

Genesis 2: 16, 17

Matthew 4: 1 - 11
Mark 1: 12, 13
Luke 4: 1 - 13
creation IV

and lucifer saw the man she had borne, how perfect he was, and fair to look upon; and she loved him dearly, for he was her son.
and god saw the man of his seed; and behold,
man was a forceful tower to rise above the garden of his creation: for in him was the strength of his bones; the walls of his flesh; the fire of his blood; the plating of his skin; and, high up, the chamber of his mind, with the open loopholes of his eyes.
but there was emptiness in him, for there was not a watcher, to dwell in him, that he might look out, to watch over the garden, and over man; that man might look at himself; see his own reflection, and judge the steps of his feet.
and there was a quarrel between god and lucifer, his wife, for she looked at her son, whom she had borne, and behold, it was very, very good, and she saw in him no flaw.
god though, went out, and found him a spirit, to dwell in man.

and see: the heaven was opened, and the spirit descended in a bodily shape like a chicken upon him;
and a voice came from heaven, which said: thou art my beloved son, in whom i am well pleased

and man looked at himself
and man saw himself was alive
and man did not know what to do
and god washed his hands in innocence

and god commanded man, saying:
there is one tree in the garden, that thou mayest freely take the fruit of; it is the tree of knowledge of good and evil, and thou shalt take its fruit and thereof feed and nourish thy body and thy spirit.
but any other kind of fruit, thou shalt not eat of it, and any kind of food offered thee, thou shalt not eat of it.
thus it shall be for forty days; thou shalt fast and not eat; and angels will come and serve thee.

and man felt hunger.
and he took from the tree of knowledge of good and evil, for him to eat.
and he let some of it fall to the ground, that his soul might be fed; but its fruit was dry, and bitter, and it filled him not.

station II   02
[jesus takes up his cross]

Genesis 28: 11

Matthew 25: 35, 36
Matthew 4: 3, 4
Luke 4: 3, 4

Deuteronomy 8: 3

Genesis 3: 8 - 11

Genesis 3: 12

Deuteronomy 23:10, 11

Genesis 3: 22

Job 11: 4- 6
Job 17: 9
Job 33: 9
Psalm 24: 4
Ezekiel 44: 23

dream I

and man took of the stones of that place, and put them for his pillows, and lay down on that place to sleep.
and he dreamed, and behold, someone calling his name; and as he looked up, he saw lucifer, and in her hand a stone; and she spoke, and said unto him: i have seen your hunger, and my heart was filled with pity; for don't you know you are the son of god ? and, as such, you have the power to command these stones you sleep upon, that they be made bread ?
but he spoke to her and said: man doth not live by bread only, but by the knowledge of all wisdom that proceedeth from the hands of god.
and as he was yet speaking, behold, the stone in her hand became a fresh, steaming bread.
and she looked at him; and see, she was stark naked; and his eyes grew big with amazement, for until that day his eye had not yet laid upon the beauty of a woman; and he desired her more than the bread.
and she departed from him.
and it was morning, and the sun went up over man, and covered his face with golden light; and dark rings were around his eyes, and see, he was unclean.

and when the sun had reached its zenith, his father came down to him; and he was afraid, and hid himself from the presence of his father.
and god called unto man, and said unto him: where art thou ?
and he said, i heard thy voice in the garden, and i was afraid; and i hid myself
and god said, why wast thou afraid ? hast thou eaten, of the things i commanded thee that thou shouldest not eat ?
and man said, the woman came to me, and gave me a bread, but i was strong and did not touch it; and she took it away; i have not broken my fast.
and god saw him, and lo, the uncleanness that had chanceth him by night.
and he said, behold, the man is become as one of us, to know delight and desire; and great envy came upon him; and he called unto lucifer, his wife, saying: do not dare to come close to my son;
for he shall be pure, and clean in my eyes; without transgression; innocent, and without iniquity; he shall have clean hands, and a pure heart, and not lift his soul unto vanity; and i will speak, and open my lips against him; and i will shew him the secrets of wisdom, and teach him the difference between the holy and the profane, and cause him to discern between the unclean and the clean; that he might be righteous and hold on his way, and know that he that hath clean hands shall be stronger and stronger.

and god left;
and man's mind was deeply confused about all this what it had seen.

station III   03
[jesus falls the first time]

Deuteronomy 23:11, 12


and the evening came
and with the evening, the moon;
and with the moon, footsteps approaching

and man did not look up, for his trouble was great

and lucifer came, and saw man and the turmoil of his soul.
and she pitied him, and came and sat down by his side.
and she washed him with water, that he might no longer be unclean in the eyes of his father.
and man looked up; and behold, the woman of his dream; and she was beautiful, and she embraced him without speaking.
and the scent of her body streamed into his nostrils, and he was filled with delight.
but as she looked him in the eyes, his soul broke out in shrieking loud and sudden screams, out of a deep terror; and it disgusted her deeply; and she went away from him.
and man was alone with his soul.

and man was filled with anger against his soul, for the sake of that, what it had done; and from that moment on, his soul was filled with unrest, and would not give him peace that he might close his eyes and find sleep, that night, and the next

station IV   04
[jesus meets his mother]

Mark 15: 21

"Wish you were here"
©  Pink Floyd, 1975
and on the third night man could not bear it any longer.
and he called out against his soul, and its unrest became even greater; and he grabbed it in his hands; and, as there was a simon, who passed by, coming out of the country, he compelled him to bear it.
and simon took his soul, and went, that man may find rest for some time.
how i wish                       so,
so you think you can tell
heaven from hell
blue skies from pain
can you tell a green field
from a cold steel rail
a smile from a veil
do you think you can tell ?
and did they get you to trade
your heroes for ghosts
hot ashes for trees
hot air for a cool breeze
cold comfort for change
and did you exchange
a walk on part from the war
for a lead role in a cage ?

station V   05
[simon helps jesus carrying the cross]

Isaiah 14: 12

Genesis 31: 40

Psalm 23: 5
Matthew 26: 7
Mark 14: 3
Luke 7: 37, 38
John 12: 3
and lucifer stood up against god
and there was a fight between them, and heavy words; and lucifer left the house.
and there was hatred between them, for their ears had grown deaf to each other;
and from that day on god lived in darkness.

how i wish
how i wish you were here
we're just two lost souls swimming in the fish bowl
year after year
hanging over the same old grounds
what have we found
the same old fears...
wish you were here

and thus he was; in the day the drought consumed him, and the frost by night; and his sleep departed from his eyes
and man felt alone, and cold, and empty
and he cried out in breaking voice

hold me
hold me

and the evening came, and there was no moon; and it was very dark.
and it happened that lucifer came to him, carrying an alabaster jug of ointment of spikenard very precious, and stood with him, weeping, and began to wash his face with tears, and did wipe them with a white linen cloth; and kissed him; and she broke the jug and anointed him with the ointment; and the earth was filled with its odor;
and she took his soul, and brought it back to simon; for she wanted nothing with it.
and she let him lay down on her breast, and sang him a song that he might sleep

and at night the world is grey
and at night the earth is cold
. . . ( h u m m i n g ) . . .

and at night your mind is grey
you forget you sang today

i've a little light inside my hand

and at night your voice is lost
stumbling empty through the dark
and its echoes come as ghosts
dance around you in the frost

i've a little light inside my hand

and man fell asleep; and she took the light from her hand, and placed it up in the sky, that it might shine over man.

station VI   06
[[veronica wipes jesus' face]

Matthew 4: 6
Luke 4: 9 - 12
Psalm 91: 11, 12
Psalm 91: 5, 6

Psalm 91: 4

dream II

and man had a dream; and behold, lucifer standing in a big, empty space; and as she looked at him, her dress was lifted; and two figures were in her hands, man and his soul; and the soul opened its mouth, and spoke to man.
and it said:
what use is it to a man, that he be the son of god ? suffering by day, and suffering by night; bearing the vile and loathsome struggle of his father against his mother, and his mother against his father, inside his own chest; and tied with his leg to a soul that will not grant him peace ?
curb over, and look into the deep; the rocks are calling thy name;
cast thyself down, and if it is thy fathers wish to keep thee alive, he will come and give his angels charge over thee, to keep thee; they shall bear thee up in their hands, lest thou dash thy foot against a stone; and thou shalt not be afraid for the terror that striketh by night, nor for the arrow that flieth by day; nor for the pestilence that walketh in darkness; nor for the destruction that wasteth at noonday;
he shall cover thee with his feathers, and under his wings shalt thou trust: his truth shall be thy shield and buckler.
and, lest he not come down, and protect thy foot against the rock; lest he save thee not; thy bones will have found rest among the rocks that will smash thee;
and they will take thee in, and bring thee back to the dust from wither thou hast been made.
cast thyself down, and either be safe in thy fathers hands, or, otherwise, sleep peace and quiet, back in thy mothers womb.

station VII   07
[jesus falls the second time]

Psalm 55: 6 - 8

Leviticus 13: 2, 3

Leviticus 13: 14, 15
2 Kings 5: 27
curb over the deep
. . . based on Psalm 55 . . .

and man-figure looked down, and his eyes touched the ground; and it was cold, and dark, and deep; and it was very far and full of rocks;
and he wished to cast himself down - to fly for a brief moment, and embrace the rocks; but his fear was also great.

but as he looked again, behold, the woman's legs, fresh, rosy, and appetizing;
and he curbed over the abyss, and looked further between them; and his breath stuttered in his throat; his body shivered, and, when in the morning man opened his eyes to a new day, his hand was again unclean.

and he stood up, wiped the sleep off his eyes, and washed himself with water, that his father might not find him in that state.
and as he looked at himself, behold, in the skin of his hand a rising, and it was in the skin of his flesh like a plague; and the plague in sight was deeper than the skin of his flesh; and it was a plague of leprosy;
and man washed himself a second time; but see, it was on his hand as a plague; and raw flesh appeared in it; and his hand was white as snow.
and man was filled with unrest by seeing the plague having laid itself over his flesh; and he called unto simon, but simon did not know
and he urged him, that he might return his soul back unto man, that his father might not find him without it;
and simon restored his soul unto him; but, seeing the uncleanness of man's hand, the soul resisted violently, uttering loud and dreadful screams, that the air was filled with them; and it would not stay with man, except by force, for its fear was great

and the plague stayed on the skin of his flesh, and did not leave him.

and there were days, and there were nights;
and the moon returned, yet feeble and slow at first, but soon growing bolder and gradually covering the earth with her pale light.

Luke 23: 29, 30

Matthew 26: 38 - 44
Marc 14: 34 - 41
Luke 22: 40 - 46
Psalm 23: 5

Luke 23: 27
and he wished he had not been born.
and he spoke: blessed are the barren, and the wombs that never bare, and the breasts which never gave suck; and he spoke to the mountains; fall on me; and to the hills: cover me; for it seemed him better had he never been born.

"Meine Seele ist betrübt
bis an den Tot;
bleibet hier und wachet mit mir"

and he looked up, and saw a star; one single star, high up in the sky.
and he sang

and on the day i give my soul
there'll be angels on the roof
playing harps and harpsichords
and the moon she will be full
shining coldly through the clouds
and the dogs will sing at night

twinkle twinkle little star
if you tell me who you are
who knows we might fall in love...
wink, oh wink sweet little star
call me close to where you are
high up in the skies above

and as he sang, more and more stars appeared in the sky, shining until the whole firmament was filled with them; and he watched them quietly; and as he watched, a dark cloud came up from the west, and covered them before his eyes, and a soft rain came down over the earth; and the stars were hidden, and man could not see them, for they were covered with their own weeping.

station VIII   08
[jesus speaks to the women of jerusalem]

Job 9: 30
Luke 5: 12, 13

John 15: 3 - 7

John 15: 9, 10

Luke 11: 35

Genesis 17: 1 - 7

Genesis 15: 5
Genesis 22: 17, 18

Genesis 17: 22
"am Abend da es kühle war
ward Adams Falle offenbar;
  am Abend drücket ihn den Heiland nieder."

and god appeared unto man in the rain.
and man was filled with awe, for he knew he could not hide the uncleanness of his hand from his father's eyes
and he fell on his face, and besought him, saying, god, if thou wilt, thou canst make me clean; for i, even if i wash myself with snow water, and make my hands never so clean, can not purify the plague that has touched my flesh; and i repent; and i will follow thee
and his father saw him, and the plague that was on his hand; and he put forth his hand, and touched him, saying, i will: be thou clean; and immediately the leprosy departed from him.

and his father stood by him, and spoke to him:
now ye are clean through the word which i have spoken unto you.
abide in me, and i in you - as the branch cannot bear fruit of itself, except it abide in the vine; no more can ye, except ye abide in me
i am the vine, ye are the branches: he that abideth in me, and i in him, the same bringeth forth much fruit: for without me ye can do nothing
if a man abide not in me, he is cast forth as a branch, and is withered; and he is gathered, and cast into the fire, and he is burned
if ye abide in me, and my words abide in you, ye shall ask what ye will, and it shall be done unto you;

and i have loved you; continue ye in my love; and if ye keep my commandments, ye shall abide in my love; and take heed that the light which is with thee be not darkness.
and he went on, and spoke:
i am the almighty god; walk before me, and be thou perfect;
and i will make my covenant between me and thee, and i will multiply thee exceedingly.
and man fell again on his face: and god talked with him, saying: as for me, behold, my covenant is with thee, and thou shalt be a father of many nations. and i will make thee exceedingly fruitful, and i will make nations out of thee, and kings shall come out of thee.
and i will establish my covenant between me and thee, and thy seed after thee, in their generations, for an everlasting covenant; to be a god unto thee, and to thy seed after thee.

and he brought him forth abroad, and the sky was clean; and he said: look now toward heaven, and count the stars, if thou be able to number them; so shall thy seed be multiplied as the stars of the heaven, and as the sand which is upon the seashore; and in thy seed shall all the nations of the earth be blessed.

and he left of talking with him, and god went up from man.

and man lay down on the ground, and fell asleep while numbering the stars.

Genesis 28: 11 Ð 15

Genesis 13: 14 - 16

Matthew 4: 8, 9
Luke 4: 5 - 7

dream III

and he dreamed, and behold a ladder set up on the earth, and the top of it reached to heaven; and behold the angels of god ascending and descending on it.
and behold, lucifer stood above it, and said:
i am thy mother, once the light of thy father; the land whereon thou liest, to thee will i give it, and to thy seed; and i shall make thy seed as the dust of the earth, and out of me thou shalt spread abroad to the west, and to the east, and to the north, and to the south: and in thee, and thy seed in me, shall all the families of the earth be blessed.
for it is delivered unto me, and to whomsoever i will i give it;
and all these things will be thine, if only thou willt cast out thy soul, lay down, and love me;
and behold, i am with thee, and i will not leave thee, until i have done that which i have spoken to thee of.

and man could not take his eyes off her; and he stretched out his arms, that she might be with him.
and when she saw his desire, that it was as flames in his eyes, she came down and kissed him.
and they opened their arms, and their bodies, and they wished to be one;
and she begged him to go in unto her, that his seed might be sown in her womb

and see, he could not
for he had not touched any food since forty days, and there was in him no strength.

station IX   09
[jesus falls the third time]

2 Corinthians 11: 27
Micah 7: 10
Psalm 42: 3, 10
Psalm 79: 10

Job 2: 9
Job 3: 2 - 13

Job 3: 16

Job 3: 18 - 23

and lucifer stood up, and screamed against heaven;
and she turned to her son, and spoke; and she said:
for forty days hast thou obbeyed thy father; yet, thou art homeless, and naked, and cold, and hast not even the strenght to stand up. Where is thy god ? and where are his angels to serve thee ? no one has looked after thee, except i, and yet, i could not save thee; curse god, and die !
and she spoke, and said, let the day perish wherein thou wast born, and the night in which i said, there is a man child conceived; let that day be darkness; let not god regard it from above, neither let the light shine upon it; let darkness and the shadow of death stain it; let a cloud dwell upon it; let the blackness of the day terrify it.
as for that night, let darkness seize upon it; let it not be joined unto the days of the year, let it not come into the number of the months.
lo, let that night be solitary, let no joyful voice come therein.
let them curse it that curse the day, who are ready to raise up their mourning; let the stars of the twilight thereof be dark; let it look for light, but have none; neither let it see the dawning of the day: because it shut not up the doors of my womb, nor hid sorrow from our eyes.
why did you not die from the womb ? why did you not give up the ghost when you came out of the belly ? why did my knees prevent you ? or why my breasts, that you should suck ?
for now should you have lain still and been quiet, you should have slept: then had you been at rest; as an untimely hidden birth, you had not been; as infants which never saw light.
there the prisoners rest together; they hear not the voice of the oppressor; the small and great are there, and the servant is free from his master.
wherefore is light given to him that is in misery, and life unto the bitter in soul; which long for death, but it cometh not, and dig for it more than for hid treasures; which rejoice exceedingly, and are glad, when they can find the grave ?
Isaiah 43: 1, 2
Luke 1: 79
John 1: 4, 5
John 3: 19

Genesis 3: 24

Deuteronomy 27: 20
Genesis 2: 17

and while she spoke, god came, and stood at a distance, and watched her speak.
and she turned to him, and spoke; and she said,
THOU hast called me by my name, to give light to thee, who now sits in darkness and in the shadow of death, and to guide thy feet into the way of peace; that thou shalt not be burned, neither the flame kindle upon thee, and that i would be with thee; for in me is life, and the light of men; and the light shineth in darkness, and the darkness comprehended it not;
and this is thy condemnation, that i am light come into thy world, that whosoever abideth with me should not be in darkness, but THOU hast loved darkness rather than light.

and as she finished, god came closer; and see, they were both naked, man and his mother; and a great anger came over him, and a wrath never before shown overpowered him, and covered his face.
and he took lucifer by her throat, and threw her to the ground, and his son, he took him by the arm and drove him out of the garden of his creation.
and he spoke, and said: now hast thou called my curse over thee, and thou shalt surely die.

Matthew 27: 28 - 30

Luke 23: 38
John 20: 19, 20

Matthew 27: 34
Mark 15: 36
Luke 23: 36
John 20: 29

Matthew 26: 26 - 29
Mark 14: 22 - 25
Luke 22: 17 - 20

Matthew 27: 35
Mark 15: 24
Luke 23: 34
John 20: 23, 24

and man took his soul in both hands
and laid it on a wooden block.
and he took the axe, lifted it high above his head, and let it come down with great force on the soul's neck.
its head fell on the ground; its body, overcome with sudden jerks and a multitude of violent spasms, jumped about as possessed, and slowly came to rest, lifeless.
and man stood still, and his eyes were dark; and he looked at his soul; and beyond, into the infinity that lay after it; and he stood for a long time.
and he bent down, and took the little crowned head, and held it in the palm of his hands.

station X   10
[jesus is stripped off his garments]

station XI   11
[jesus is nailed to the cross]

Matthew 27: 45, 46
Mark 15: 33, 34
Luke 23: 44, 45

"O Haupt voll Blut und Wunden,
Voll Schmerz und voller Hohn,
O Haupt, zum Spott gebunden
Mit einer Dornenkron',
O Haupt, sonst schön gezieret
Mit höchster Ehr' und Zier,
Jetzt aber höchst schimpfieret:
Gegrüßet sei'st du mir!"

and there was sudden darkness over all the land, and the sun was covered for 3 hours.

and man cried with a loud voice, saying

eli       eli
lama sabachtani

and the only answer was the echo of his voice

Luke 23: 46

Matthew 27: 51

Matthew 27: 55, 56
Mark 15: 40, 41
and man took the lifeless heap of his soul, lifted it up in his hands, and said:

father, into thy hands i commend my spirit

and having said thus he gave up the ghost, and died.
and the earth did quake, and the rocks rent; and the garden, created that man might live in it, sank to the ground.


and his mother stood afar off, beholding these things.
and when she saw his body, that he had given the ghost, she came and took him in her arms, moaning with infinite sorrow and grief

and man was bone and man was flesh
and man was mind therein
and man was blood and life therethrough
and placed thereon, a skin

and man was eye and thus he saw
the world a troubled place
and man was soul that he might feel
his own trouble and disgrace

but bones dry out and flesh gets cold
and mind falls sound asleep
and blood stops running, skin comes loose
and eye sinks in so deep

your life was dim, your death is cold
your limbs are pale and stiff
your mother weeps, has not the strenght
to find her son a grave

you're a little light up in the sky

and god came down
caressed his lips
and kissed his broken eyes
and touched him with his fingertips
but he did not arise

station XII   12
[jesus dies on the cross]

station XIII   13
[jesus is taken down from the cross]

Isaiah 14: 16, 17
Isaiah 14: 16, 17
Is this he, who made the earth to tremble,
who did shake kingdoms
Who made the world as a wilderness,
and destroyed the cities thereof;
Who opened not the house of his prisoners?

he cried his pain in bitterness
his tears came down as snow
and covered the body while his voice resounded
out of you flowers will grow . . .

station XIV   14
[jesus is buried in the tomb]

Matthew 8: 12
Matthew 13: 42
Matthew 22: 13
Matthew 24: 51
Matthew 25: 30
Luke 13: 27

Job 1: 20, 21

Luke 15: 20 - 24


and god turned his eyes onto lucifer, she who had once been the light of his days, and the flame of his nights;
and he took her, and cast her out, into outer darkness, where there is wailing and gnashing of teeth.

and god went back home

and he was alone.
and he wept in loud voice.
and he lifted up his hands, and his pain was great.
and he let his hands come down on all that was his; every piece of his making; his pride, for him to have; and threw it out, in the outer darkness, that it shall break into pieces, and that his eye might never again bear the sight of it.

and thus threw he out all he had, that was his.
and he went out, and rent his mantle, and shaved his head, and fell down on the ground; and said: naked came i out of my mothers womb, and naked shall i return to it.
and he stood up, and walked out, through the wilderness, that he might return to his mother's womb.
but when he was yet a great way off, his father saw him, and had compassion, and ran, and fell around his neck, and kissed him.
and he said: bring forth the best clothes, and put them on him; and put a ring on his hand, and shoes on his feet; and bring hither the fat poultry, and prepare it; and let us eat, and be merry; for this my child was gone, and is back again; he was lost, and is found.
and you, my son, go inside; your mother has been waiting for you.

and god went inside
fell on his knees,
leaned his head against his mothers breast,
and wept bitterly

and she,
she put her arms around him
ran her lips through his hair
and lulled him asleep


epilogue   15

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